I am not afraid of being by myself again

I am not afraid of feeling not wanted anymore

I am not of deep loneliness

I am not afraid of being alone

I am not afraid of being in a relationship with just myself

I am not afraid of feeling outcast

I am not afraid of being afraid

I am not afraid of feeling pain anymore

I am no longer suppressing my heartache

I am embracing the feeling of disappointments

I am deeply departed from ego

I no longer need thoughts anymore to justify my feelings

I am not afraid of being broken anymore

I am no longer running from growing pains

I am no longer trying to control the emotions of another

I no longer have to beg for someone to stay in my life

I no longer pour value into empty things

I am not afraid of crying anymore

I am no longer trying to control what I feel anymore

I am no longer suppressing the wild beast within me anymore

I am turning my inner demons into inner joy

I no longer hurt about lost anymore

I no longer worry about things outside of my universe

I no longer try to heal myself because I am no longer in a state of continuous brokenness

I no longer put anything or anyone above what I really really want most for myself

I am my home

I am my own flashlight

I am my own foundation

I am the fireplace

I am the blanket

I am the family I’ve always wanted

I am the child I always wanted

I am the friend I always wanted

I am the person I always wanted to be with

I am the soulmate I’ve been looking for

I am the abandonment I tried to suppress and avoid

I am the emptiness I try to pretend wasn’t there

I am the shame I hid inside me

I am all the situations I tried to turn into relationships and they didn’t work

I am all the ones who walked away from me and left me when I’m needed them

I am the ones who put everyone above me

I am the feeling of unity I was craving

I am every thanksgiving and Christmas Eve

I am the food I needed when I couldn’t eat

I am the home I needed when I hadno place to go to no place to live

I am all the songs and melodies that were helping me get through endless emotional suffering

I am the person I wanted to look up to

I am the guidance I needed

I am that warm touch that felt so good to me

I am the hug I always wanted

I am the tears I’ve held in

I am everyone in my life that died or walked away

I am the disconnection I am also the connection

I am the supreme being

I am the eternal force

I am the mother I never had

I am the soul that was broken

I am the reminisce of all those beautiful times spent together

I am all the excuses

I am all the laughter

I am all the destruction and construction

I am all the things that wasn’t good enough

And also I am all the things that are too good to be true for anyone

I all the promises that were never kept

I am all the I will never leave you or hurt you and then did

I am the spring time birds

I am all the souls I’ve met

I am the places I’ve been

I am all the neglect

I am all the unfortunate things they told me about me

I am all the fortunate things I’ve told them about me

I am the proof and unproven

I am the strength they saw in me but I knew I wasn’t strong because I didn’t have a center a core a family that made the ones like me really strong

I am the impossible

I am an enigma

I am a mystery because I made it through without any strength

I am all the times they wouldn’t give me a second chance

I am all the settling

I am all the... see that’s what you get

And I am also see that’s what I got

I am all the thankful moments when someone took time out to acknowledge me and talk to me

I am what cannot be

I am the morning-glory

I am all the lack

I am all the hatred because they never knew anything else

I am the one who will

I am the one who can

I am the one who did

And I am so freaking proud of me

Because I did it broken

I did it in weakness

I did it blind

I did it in the dark

I did it with no eyes

I did it with no heart

I did it with no love

I did it with no hope

I did it with no joy

I did it with no body

I did it alone

I did it in pain

I did it in hurt

I did it with tears

I did it for me

Because I really love me because I’m the only one that loves me the way I do

Because I fought for me when I gave up on me

I love me because I didn’t walk away from me when everyone else felt I wasn’t good enough for them

I stood by me even when I was ashamed of me

And I don’t owe me anything anymore

But to make me proud

And I will do that for me

Because I really love me

And I died for me and I came back to life for me

And I suffered for me

And I will do it all again for me

I thank me

For not believing in me but for being me

Beautiful me